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Anticipation is something that can come and go throughout conversation.  Meaning this as, for instance, excitement caves in on a conversation.  A participant cannot help but to feel some type of anxiousness.  Everyone has experienced some type of dramatic anticipation, there is no way around it, but what about someone who is or has experienced several different anticipations.  You may think this is not a healthy feeling, but I disagree.  Having several things to look forward to can be quite useful.  By not completely giving all concentration towards one greeting can tear a man from the inside out.  The anticipation of one moment, the long awaited arrival of something phenomenal, the simple joy in an overdue conversation can be devastating.  So, in my opinion, to spread the focus around to different parties can prevent a meltdown of imaginable proportions.  This breakdown may not be visible from the outside, but if the mind was on speakerphone, every one would listen closely.  A thing could be eating at a man's core, but only he could know it, and even if he did express this to others, only he would truly understand the struggle.  So many things we have to look forward to.  We mark our calenders for days that are months away.  We do this for a couple of reasons: we give ourselves something to look forward to, we are honestly excited about something, or we are not happy with the state that we are in.  It is usually a combination of these things, and there are also more elements involved in the equation, but those are the first reasons I came across.  I believe the worst one is the third one in ascending order from left to right.  The reason this is so dangerous is because we are secretly trying to runaway from something, to get away.  This can make time seem to stop, and no one wants that, especially in this predicament.  But it is when this problem is attached to the second one in order that allows us to survive the long, strenuous fight with anticipation.  To be truly excited about something is a great feeling.  You do not want the event to come too soon because you will not know what to do with yourself when it has gone away.  You look back, wishing something that awesome would come again just so you can be excited once more.  Excitement is usually not continuous, but comes and goes as pleases.  So we try to savor the moment when true excitement presents itself.  I have been excited for several things for an extended amount of time.  I have been fortunate enough to gain a new interest when another disappears, but my fortunate state is constant, for I have one thing that I can always look forward to.  When this time comes, I believe I will not need anything to look forward to; satisfaction will last.  That is a good feeling.  The struggles of waiting can be very rewarding.  I will know all about tomorrow night, but even after that, I have something else to cast my wishful thoughts upon.  Let's just say I am lucky, for these thoughts will soon no longer be wishful.  But until then, the several headed monster of anticipation will be struck down... by Harry Potter.